Are we still friends? I don’t know. Were we ever?
Will we still meet up and talk? Maybe. That’s all we ever did anyway.
Was I in love? Most definitely not.
I could have sworn I would spend the rest of my life loving you. It’s not happening, but it almost did. You owe me big time and you know this, it didn’t matter because it was gonna happen. But it’s not happening, it almost did.
I got out of a relationship last month. He was someone I knew had taken advantage of me because of my nature. He was not a bad person, he just had his flaws. Flaws I had trained myself to accommodate and deal with on a daily basis. My heart got used to the hurt of being left out, ignored and having my value questioned.
Every time she blinked it looked like a speed light from a camera flashed at me, and every time she smiled, I wondered how someone could be so effortlessly beautiful. But good thing my pride is bigger than my feelings, so I neither greeted her nor nodded my head to acknowledge her presence.
Fast forward to the resumption in the new year, got to work and he was there. Apparently, he started his training one month before I did but took an early end of the year break. Can’t remember who said what first but that day, I found out we were studying the same course in different universities, lived only one street away from each other and he knew all the songs that were playing from my phone. Nice!