Love Stories That Never Took Off By Fatona Oluwatobi

In the beginning, it wasn’t like this. I was his queen, our lives felt evergreen. But as they say, not everything is as it seems.

My love story is one that has had so many sides. The type that could bring tears of hurt and laughter. I have been told that I am very soft and emotional. Because of this, I have had to put up a strong independent woman front. It’s funny how the ‘ones I love’ always see through that. They make me ‘fall in love’ so I become so vulnerable and emotionally attached. The moment that happens, I seem to crave every dripping sauce of their attention. I tend to make excuses for them when they make mistakes or do other things like cancel on dates. It then seems like they can control me.

I got out of a relationship last month. He was someone I knew had taken advantage of me because of my nature. He was not a bad person, he just had his flaws. Flaws I had trained myself to accommodate and deal with on a daily basis. My heart got used to the hurt of being left out, ignored and having my value questioned.

In the beginning, it wasn’t like this. I was his queen, our lives felt evergreen. But as they say, not everything is as it seems. I took the bold step and walked away; to let go and forgive us both. I remember how I made every effort for us to meet up and talk about it. But he kept giving excuses and I kept managing. It got so bad that I got depressed and questioned my self-worth. We eventually had to talk about it via the phone, a method I truly detest, but I had no choice as I was terribly hurting and I didn’t know how to express myself.

Today, I have chosen to love and stop giving such power of happiness to others. I know I can be soft and I am accepting me for me. I have tagged 2019 a year of personal development and self-discovery. It’s safe to say I would be dating me; to know more about myself and how I can get to find me in my relationship with God.

I have told myself that love is beautiful and I should be open to falling in love. After all, I am human.

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